the last post.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
every night I stare into the darkness,
consumed by the very reason I live.
the fall is greater than others,
yet I'm not allowed to leave

the neverending torture
of having to face you
when I awake to fear.
the neverending suffering
of having to fall asleep in tears.

but it is you, I find myself relying on,
it is you, I'm helpless without.
it is you, who carved the being I am now,
and it is you, I'm lost without.

I want to move on and let go
of the vices and locks
you attach yourself to me.
But you wouldn't let me be who I want to be.

When I run, you find me.
When I laugh, you haunt me.
When I cry, you smile at me.
When I try, you fail me.

and I'm now left with the mess you left to me.



okay. this is my 135th post. after friday, I'm moving to lj, cos it's easier to post pictures unlike blogspot (yes yes, I know, I said I hated lj. I still do..it's just that posting is soo much easier). and though some may wonder what's the point of locked ljs when you're typing it online for the world to see, I'M STILL LOCKING IT. simply because...I'm so tired of knowing people who read my blog but don't tell me. it's just basic courtesy okay. and because of all these annoying annoymous people, it feels like I'm blogging just for THEIR entertainment- to while the time away. HENCE, if you want to know my blog, ASK ME. and don't ask others nor tell the others who ask you. it's simply frustrating.

Charmaine at 9:58 AM | 0 comments