Tuesday, January 27, 2009
sometimes I wonder if you really know me,
sometimes I wonder if you really care.
sometimes I wonder if you really mean it,
yet you leave me, confused.

on other times you make me laugh,
on other times you make me cry.
on other times you make me angry,
yet you leave me, wanting more.

but this time you knew me,
and this time you said.
that this time it was different
yet you leave me, stranded

the last time you saw me,
the last time you held me.
the last time you kissed me,
I was no longer there.

Charmaine at 3:15 PM | 0 comments
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
disclaimer: this is a post filled with extreme anger and frustration due to a very ridiculous situation and hence, I don't care if you judge me for my language because every person has a right to be angry. so screw it.

a particular driving school is such an ass. this malaysian-looking-checkpoint/ dodgy/ dreary/ disgusting piece of landmark just HAD TO SPOIL MY DAY/ YEAR. the people there are PURE PRICKS who literally are just plain retards who think they are so bloody smart just because they are 'SENIORS' there and have a hell lotta experience with vehicles. they just plain f****ing annoying.

okay, here's the situation:
  • I forgot my IC and had no time to go back to get it. so I kinda lied that I lost it. so the guy in charge of giving people their passwords made me stand aside while he tend to the rest of the people.
  • He asked me a whole load of useless questions about my ic WHICH DOESN'T CONCERN HIS CHEAP ASS, and makes me wait outside the room until his 'SENIOR' can assess the situation
  • so I wait outside like as if waiting in the dreadful polyclinic waiting halls with cheap plastic chairs while he asks me 'where you stay', 'your passport?' [I mean WHO THE HELL BRINGS THEIR PASSPORT EVERYWHERE THEY GO?!], 'can you get your family members to come down' in which I replied 'no one's home'.
  • then he stops giving out his passwords, and look at me like 'oh how?'. you know that IDIOTIC slip of USELESS paper only needs your NAME and IC no. seriously, THE DAMN EZ LINK card has it with a PHOTO. and MY piece of paper was staring right at his face. I pointed to it and was like 'THAT's MINE'.
  • while waiting, a poly boy used his tertiary ez link card too. and it was quite funny cos he gave the same answers to the same questions: 'I don't have my IC and don't bring my passport out', 'woodlands', 'no one's home'. NOW HERE'S THE F****ing annoying problem with these pricks.
  • SENIOR says 'got student card. ez link NO. we have STRICT RULES'. I was like [are you f****ing kidding me] 'I USE THIS FOR MY A-LEVELS'. (according to prabs, I could be heard). I was like so bloody irritated and frustrated. I mean WTF. so poly boy comes along, and shows his poly card. 'okay go' I was like WHAT THE F**K. okay I didn't say it out loud. I was so irritated I said 'I just finish my A-levels. and JC students DON'T HAVE STUDENT CARDS, I mean we use this to take all our exams'. and the prick says 'NO EZ LINK.'
  • I was like so frustrated I was close to tears. I called my brother, who was so nice and understanding to leave school immediately and cab home to get my passport and cab to that stupid place. and they expected it all done in half an hour. HELLO IT'S PEAK HOUR! and the dumb retard just gave me that 'oh, who ask you' look. if I could I would print their faces and stab it a million times before sending it to hell by burning it. and they were like 'okay you can take your test but you cannot end test until the passport comes'
  • so I took it, and the whole time they were watching me like I was gonna cheat or something. HAH, I finished the damn shit in 12 mins including checking. and the same prick was like 'you finish already ah. check la' and I happily told him 'I checked it' *fake smile*. then they paused my test and asked me go out and call my brother (actually I was msging in the test room)
  • by 7.15pm my brother was like only reaching home! so I mean, instead of making him waste money to cab down and watch them disqualify me, I told him to save the money, and self-disqualified myself. WHAT THE F**K. I was SO ANGRY, I kinda dropped a tear or two. but I was fine. walked in with dignity and told them I would disqualify. [WHO THE HELL GOES TO A TEST TO DISQUALIFY THEMSELVES?! you're currently looking at one]
  • on the bus, I just got so damn pissed recounting the whole conversation and the ridiculous-ness of the whole damn thing I couldn't help but shed a few tears. lucky the bus was like empty, people probably thought must have been a bgf thing *rolls eyes*
  • and the most annoying part...I was DEFINITE I could have passed with flying colours.

the worst part: JC STUDENTS DON'T HAVE STUDENT CARDS.

and you know what...the next test...is in MARCH

finally... the moment you've been waiting for.

**DC....FUCK IT


Charmaine at 10:07 PM | 0 comments
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
NOTE: I am too lazy to upload any photos of any outings (which has been alot) as that would mean I have to resize them first. HENCE, since patience is a virtue, WAIT.

anyways, I've been reading blogs from the people I like, to the people I don't like to people I don't even know. so since I'm so full from dinner, I need to channel that energy somewhere= bitching.

I shall attempt to address some FAQs that you may have always wanted to ask but never became a somebody to ask that person. [disclaimer: this is not targetted towards anybody. ANYBODY]

Q1: Why do people like to lock their blogs? I mean, why write them online if you're gonna lock it right?
A: Privacy, respect it. and if you can't get vip passes into the juice, move on.

Q2: Why do people like to post pictures of their bfs/gfs like in every post?
A: let them live their life la. it's short. but okay, it's damn annoying too. HENCE, that's what it's LOCKED for; it's their way of responding to your way of saying 'go get a room'

Q3: Why do people like to bitch about others on their blog?
A: EH, you're looking at one okay. but anyways, it's because...(maybe) they know the person won't read it, and it wouldn't be very courteous to say it in their face :) the world's a bitch, time to learn biatches.

Q4: But why do they have to post about the life we are so not interested in?
A: then why read it.

Q5: Isn't it hypocritical to bitch about them on your blog and then be nice to the person?
A: DUH. then don't be nice la.

Q6: Why do people sometimes try to be deep/abstract/philosophical until no one understands what they're talking about?
A: (to be nice) it's a form of self-expression. (bitchy) ACT ONLY

Q7: what's the difference between interesting blogs and boring ones?
A: boring ones are those who only blog about their mundane lives like it's a recipe [step 1...step 2...etc]. interesting blogs are blogs in which you find yourself engaged in topics you're not even interested in (eg. palin)

Q8: what do you think of PBA (public blogging of affection)?
A: I call it BAD (blogging of affection disorder/dislike/distaste)

Q9: why be bitchy?
A: honey, when you can't fight them, join them. told ya life's a bitch

Q10: how should I be a disciplined and regular blogger who doesn't leave a blog dead?
A: find your inner bitch.

Charmaine at 10:08 PM | 1 comments
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
oI feel like as if I've had a massive hangover from a night of endless clubbing and drinking. zomg. don't worry, I did'nt do any of that. I'm just sleep deprived. Used to the usual 12 hours, a sudden 4 hours is like GIMME A BREAK. doesn't help that goodness knows if the kfc drumstick I had was half cooked, coupled with the cabby's accelerated journey...I feel sick in the gut. BLEH.

moving on...today was not too bad. endless bitching, movie session and a journey around this tiny dot we call singapore.

went down to the CBD area with all the cool cool people walking and talking on their phones. wearing my 'beach wear': a casual top and shorts...it was no wonder people gave me looks. anyways, I just went down to collect a dress. had lunch at vivo's banquet with prabs and hariz, followed by IP MAN. it was uber cool! as good as my nicole kidman's woadrobe in 'Australia' obsession (sorry if my english makes no sense, this is what holidays have done to me). oh in the cinema, this bitch of a man had to talk on the phone so loudy...I was like so annoyed. I mean who cares if you wanna go to the ktv lounge. at least be cooler and say kbox. *rolls eyes*. prabs was like 'don't pick a fight', pfft, and I sat there in plain frustration- mentally replaying how I would have loved to give him a piece of my mind if I could. idiot.

time for a HAIRCUT! I was like looking forward to it all day :) prabs and hariz were nice to follow me all the way to clarke quay and wait patiently for my hour long hair cut. then we took a bus down to commonwealth before I left for my mum's office. we just bitched the whole day. HAHA. funny, the people we can't stand are always the people we give our attention to most.


okay, yesterday I went to the zoo with karms and then desmond's farewell party (before he enlists).

zoo: it's not that we're self centred...we just lacked extra photographers. hence, the frequent one-subject in each picture.



did I mention? karmy and I have totally opposite tastes in animals. starting with her saying 'omg so cute!' to the ostrich ...



and polar bears....sigh, we're like puny compared to this bear



and this extremely retarded looking bird, I was like "eeyer"






and CHAR here likes giraffes! :)






[not the lions...but look, even animals laze around during holidays!]







omg, they had this new kiddyland, and I was like soooo happy! this grass uh..whatever thing, was just irresistably cute. and karmy was like Zzzz

gosh, I'm not even up to it's knees, talk about leggy.


elephants are my favourite animals! :)






THERE, KIDZWORLD, with a horse. my no. 2 favourite!






C: karms!!! let's go take the merry go round!!!
K: HOW OLD ARE YOU. it's so embarrassing
[ticketing counter]
C: 2 tickets please!! *excited*
(lady smiles widely)
K: okok, relax
C:thank you, okay quick! oh they started without us!
L: don't worry they will be done in about 3 mins, enjoy!
C: karms! let's take a picture!
K: here, it's so embarrassing
C: hi! *smiles to uncle operator* can you take a picture for us?
UO: sure, smile! *smiles widely at our age*
C:Karmy! which one are you gonna choose!
K: the bunny. -.-. it's so cute
C: HUH, so unexciting one. I want the high high one...I shall take the eagle!
reflections: gawd, it was so damn hard to climb the stupid eagle, and I wound up bumping my leg while getting off.













miniature horses, I wonder what's their purpose on earth



(inside joke)



there was this house at the kiddy world, to model after the olden times and it's spookishly realistic.

my no. 1 favourite animal! I couldn't resist wanting to feed them! but omg, I've never bought such expensive fruits
reflections: how funky is this, people feed birds, feed fish, feed ducks. I FEED ELEPHANTS. WHOOO :D


this male tiger was super restless, while his wives were sleeping. he looked pretty hungry to me.


FINALLY, we were so tired after walking the entire zoo, we got an ice milo and cam whored. HAHA




every girl has her inner lesbian tendencies, and mine was just a wild instinct to have discovered it in a natural habitat. hehe





so off to Desmond's house for a night of overstuffing and GUITAR HERO.








loves :)

Charmaine at 2:11 AM | 0 comments
Monday, January 5, 2009
CHAR HAS A JOB


when boredom takes over @ 4am...






Your Famous Movie Kiss is from The Empire Strikes Back



"Captain, being held by you isn't quite enough to get me excited."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?








You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!



Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.

And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.

Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.

You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

Do You Need a Man?







Charmaine. Love Every Bite.



That pretty much sums you up!

The Slogan Generator







You Are Disco Dancing



You are very energetic and lively. You could dance all night.

Fun loving and social, you like dancing best when everyone in the room is dancing.



You love to dance to anything, and it's hard to stop once you start.

You love dancing in a crowd. And no matter how big the crowd, all eyes are usually on you.

What Dance Are You?

Charmaine at 8:37 PM | 0 comments
Saturday, January 3, 2009

so good riddance to 2008 and all its terrible memories that came with the package I didn't sign up willingly for. and HELLO 2009! I hope it won't be a bitch.


met jai at sentosa to take pictures for my upcoming online store! do patronise!! http://candidd.livejournal.com/ (before you click, it's not ready yet! as in the clothes! but soon soon! latest monday!)


some pictures turned out really nice, some spooky! but it was so much fun! cos we just changed like there and then. then imagine a girl in a dress prancing around on that little island and climbing on trees and rocks and walking into the water. haha. it sure brought out the curiousity of the tourists. HENCE, it doesn't mean we're so self-absorbed in our own world to take individual shots.


this one makes jai look like she's molesting the tree. HAHAH. omg, I'm a lousy director


see, we trudged in the high tide. all for fashion


jai looks like she's reminiscing



and it was great fun climbing all the rocks. though it hurt a little




this one's scary. I look like I wanna commit suicide like that




and this, is jumanji come alive





oh jai was so terrified of the suspension bridge. so I deliberately ran on the beach like a drunkee and scared her to death. look at her expression. it's hilarious (jai, I know you will read this eventually, but I still love ya despite all the meanness :) AHAHA)






this tree, I wasnt wearing slippers, and just below it was the sea. I was a little too chicken to walked the line.




I love this picture of jai, it's my second favourite!





tadah!! my fabulous photographer :) jai, my friends said the blue dress shot was nice and kept asking me who took it! :)











and THIS is my NO.1 FAVOURITE

so we watched the oh-so-long movie AUSTRALIA. I think it would have been better after the cattle part. cos it was just soooo long. BUT I adore the movie nontheless. NICOLE KIDMAN! her woadrobe was like....OMG, I so want it!!! and even her baby bump didn't even look like one. and she's so tall and okay, I can just go on forever about her. HAHA.
THANK YOU JINGS FOR THE VERY PRETTY CHARM BRACELET. I HEART IT :) oh did I mention, her perfume smelled so nice! :) I couldn't stop smelling it but hey I can't help it, she was like next to me! AHAH
had ayam penyet for dinner with the guys since jings and jai left for holland for the respective dinners. omg, all the guys except prabs were like red and finished their drinks so quickly thanks to the lingering taste of the chilli. haha. then we took a nice walk down from orchard to esplanade to chill. it was fun! I wanna do it again!!



and that's a wrap! FINALLY. gosh, I have decided to be a diligent blogger and blog my events the next day otherwise I'm stuck sitting in front of this laptop blogging ALL DAY. seriously, I sat here from 1.30 pm. :( LOVES

Charmaine at 8:34 PM | 1 comments
OMG. I'm SO PISSED. I paid like 25 bucks for this polka dotted skirt...and I thought okay maybe last time (when the same thing happened) it was just unlucky. NOW MY SKIRT IS LOST. wth shit. I HATE NORMAL POSTAGE. THIS IS WHY I HATE BEING A CHEAPO and usually opt for registered mail. ARGH. irritating. stupid woman

then I'm so annoyed because JCS was like so nice to send me a schedule for students who want to repeat their japanese course of study (since I took a break in march for stupid A levels). my MUM just dumped it near the door, and if I didnt go ransack that area for a postal invoice, I wouldn't have known that....I MISS THE DAMN REGISTRATION. now I have to appeal. and because of A levels, I always have to give the school so much trouble. screw you moe.

oh yes, one more thing...the postal invoice for my registered mail...IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. how am I gonna collect my mail at this rate....ARGH. I'm gonna storm down to the post office and...and...find my stupid mail! why can't people do meet ups. sheesh.

Charmaine at 8:24 PM | 0 comments

26-30 dec: BALI


5 things I liked about Bali:


  1. very friendly people

  2. french fries

  3. juices

  4. corn soup

  5. horse riding

5 things I dislike about Bali:



  1. houseflies overload

  2. traffic :S

  3. bargaining

  4. dry food :(

  5. currency





WELCOME TO BALI




the Bali Dynasty Hotel




Day Two: snorkelling, bananaboating, tanning.



due to drowsy medicine, I slept most of the time :)


gosh, the sea water was SO SALTY, my throat itched from swallowing it :S


oh yes, most of the food in Bali, is buffet style. when you're a tourist that is. so we ate on the boat
Day Three: river rafting, Uluwatu temple, dinner by the Jinbaran beach
these are some of the sightings along the drive towards the river rafting place
due to natural geographical boundaries, we had to trudge down a steep 15 min walk down the mountain to get to the cold river water and await our 4m drop down a small dam :)
while rafting, one of the indo boats played too much, being the complacent beings that they were, they flipped.. see this is why people say don't act smart.and here we have a waterfall
so, after we were done, we took a 2 min climb up the steep mountain again. the poor guides had to deflate the dinghy and fold it and carry it on their heads UP the mountain. they are damn strong man. and you know to see drinks, the villagers carry the can drinks in this huge bucket and trudge along the strong currents and up the mountains. its was WOW
next stop: ULUWATU temple.
the fire dance show was sold out as you can see from the tiny bobs in the picture. and check out how high the temple is :)
sitting on a cliff's edge almost gave my mum a heart attack, so to placate her, I moved in abit

my mum was terrified. HAHAH

then, the best part, a seafood feast by the Jinbaran beach during sunset
while waiting for dinner, the guide took my brother on a motorcycle belonging to the restaurant peeps and rode out to the nearby convenience store to buy FIREWORKS. hahaha. we lit them up and it's SO MUCH FUN. screw sg for stupid rules and stupid flats.



DAY FOUR: Buggy ride, horse riding, volcano seeing and the spice garden

because it was so high up in the mountains, the weather was COLD and fabulous
we ate in the traditional way of eating, sitting down on a hut. It's so funky. we should adopt this style of eating man. you even get to swing your legs!
we arrived at the spice garden where they grow all sorts of things. this is how they roast their coffee beans and boil water for the guests to sample the drink there. the ginseng coffee was fantastic! and once again, I seem to like to be on edge. LOL
FINALLY, MY FAVOURITE PART: HORSERIDING.
in Bali, things are done differently, the person doesn't walk your horse around the stable for 15 mins. you RIDE your horse for 2 hours :D by the beach. it's soo romantic.
this is my horse, SANTI. she's old and half blind, which was why I didnt want her to run, we just trotted down (it's good enough for me) cos I felt pretty bad for making an old hungry lady run. I mean if it was me, I wouldn't even wanna move.

this was my caretaker. apparently they ride all the horses down the beach every day for exercise. so he's called BLACK MAN. haha. the guides are really fun people who love to take pictures for me and kenny and of them. that's the male horse my guide was riding. he got so impatient with santi he kept turning around to neigh at her. I could almost sense the anxiety to race down the beach. but santi just ignored him. :)
this is the black sand beach. the sand's black due to the huge ass volcano eruption in 1964. black sand is really pretty. my mum brought back 2 bags of it and wound up getting checked at sg customs for fear of gunpowder -.-
the people behind me, collect granite stones which are sold for rp 30,000 a bucket which will be then made in to the construction of tiles and stuff like that
oh yes, WEAR jeans when you go horse riding, I wound up with abrasions on both my inner thighs because of the friction between my legs and the saddle while trotting, I don't wanna imagine when it runs.
and,here are some animals we saw in our trip. oh yes, Bali has ALOT of dogs. HAHA






Day Five: a facial, hair treatment, and manicure to placate my exhausted body. however, my body was one bruise because it ached like hell
so that sums up Bali, and I have to say when you go there, you really love the people. They will look at you with curious eyes (the kids especially), wave and smile and ask you 'hello! what is your name!' or 'where are you from!'. it's very adorable :)


























Charmaine at 6:42 PM | 0 comments